THE 7 YEARS

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
aku mula bicara sebaik mesej dari kau aku terima
sepanjang perkenalan antara aku dan kau...stiap slah dari ku..maafkan aku
stiap layann buruk baik ku trhadap kau andai terlalu kasarnya aku..maafkan aku
Maafkan aku,akibat perbuatan aku terhadap kau terlampau kasar sehinggakan aku x sgka pbuatan ku sgt mementingkan diri serta tamak..dan tlampau menekan...perbuatan ku ini tidak aku sedar sehingga aku telah membuat orang lain terluka..yang aku tahu ..diri aku yang aku pertahankan dulu...maffkan aku...dari awal lagi kau pernah cakap kau x nk ada yg tahu...n apa yg kau dah buat ni salah..tp masa awal dlu..dsbbkn ko tlmpau mmilih aku jalan yg slah dah kita berdua pilih...terlampau banyak perkara yg kite dh lakukan bersama baik yg benar atau pun salah...kadang aku sendiri pikir...apa benar sejauh ini jalan yg kita pilih??
For the past 3 years ..I would like to thanks to yo..I do appreciate you, I am so grateful to have you...for being take care of me, at some point, u make me laugh,,happy,,feels love and everything that we have gone through together..There are some moment that i will always remember...Fore sure the things i most appreciate is when u take care,wait for me while i was sick before this..That was the most time I appreciate u the most.Since those time as well u back me up so much and being annoyed for what most my friend did to me...For the moment at all places that we ve been went together, I wonder, what will happend to me and what it feels like when u re not here anymore? With the most hurting part tht happend last night, it hurts me more since im the one who fault in this situation. I am so sorry for what i did. Because of jealousy, im being too emotional as well last night since im too scared, if i lost u..n eventually it did happen. I am so sorry.. I do not know what should I do...counting days on only how many days left for me to be with u here since after this you are away too far at the south completing your practical and then starts working. I wish you all the best..Sayang..I put my believe on you..and im so sorry for did not trust you and think otherwise everytime. I am jut too scared to lost you...But then i notice it really  happens  now due to my fault. I am tired actually for the promises if its not work out someday...
THEN,,as my last word..yes i will keep it secret from now on.. i WILL NOT FORCE U ANYMORE, wont think negatively...so please keep ur promises as well as u will come back to me Apabila kau sudah mampu memiliki aku semula...I will wait for u...Those 7 years..lets starts counting...disebabkan semua yang telah pun berlaku..satu je aku minx...jgn benci aku...simpan janji kau untuk aku,ye?