S.Y.U.K.U.R

This time, I want to feel love like everyone else,

Today, I want to feel the happiness that I did not get like others,

I want to laugh like other people did, like other couples, the peace like everyone else ..

Sometimes I always thought, did they enjoy their life? how does it feel ?? as if it was just me ??

Or is it just me who might feel ungrateful with what I have ???? or am I too hoped ??

I wish there is ESC button that I can press and then choose on whose life I can exchange with ...

Thats why I always ask things that maybe nonsense ?? because I didn't get any of it, thats the reason, maybe?

Often dreamed of living like everyone else, always loved, cared for, pampered, bestnya..teetttt, it's not your life la pulak..just a dreammmmmm...In fact, nothing is perfect in this world,,even me myself  never stopped from doing mistakes .. Its just that, I just stated that what I want, with the hope that one day I also can feel that way...I know, what I ask is merely a request, that it was difficult to make it happend..and I realized I had to stop it,,, right!

s.y.u.k.u.r ...

I should learn to be grateful for what I have and stop being greedy...

stop hurting yourself with the hope of something that is not yours yet...

p/s= everyhing is just a pinjaman okay..so heads up!

Hey dude!!!!! U re not a kids!

OKAY!
first of all, u re not satisfied with me????
zZzZzZZZZz
Tell me directly, especially when its really come to my fault.... im not that kind of ego in person actually, but if u throw a shit on me,, nah.. lets play together..lets main baling2 ye???
Actually, the problem is , u're not satisfied with someone..then Kau mengadu kt org lain..n the person is org yg kau sdiri kenal..what derrr!!!!
My Advice: x suka cakap depan2 , tell me directly,... u know what....masalah tu datang daripada diri kau sendiri.. stop living like a boss and make others like ur kuli...understand others too..ko jgn nk bakup org while u know why she do that..kau kenal aku mcm mana kan???? sdiri x puas hati face me...n bukan jadi radio bergerak kesana sini mnjaja cerita..tq

tarbiyah hati...yang aku perlukan...

Lets manage our money!

Stitches - Shawn Mendes / Eunho Kim Choreography

Many young people face the dilemma of learning how to manage their money. Due to this, they often find themselves in debt or unable to support themselves. I have learned a few ways to keep myself from falling into traps that may cause me to be in debt or with no money. I have found that if I create a budget, make a list of my necessities, and set financial goals, I am able to avoid financial snares.

One can create a budget is by allowing oneself a certain amount of money a week to spend. One way of doing this is by setting aside a specific amount of money out of your income for spending and save the rest. Specify the amount of money one will need to spend monthly and try not to go over your specified budget. One also should decide how much money one want to spend on certain things. Try to find the best bargains possible. The majority of the time when one shops around, one is able to find things at a lower price rather than jumping at the first chance one gets. If one finds something that one wants and it is expensive, one should wait and save up in order to buy the specific thing. By doing this, one does not have to go into your savings in order to buy something that was not needed immediately. A major factor of sticking by your budget is learning to say no. One should try to avoid places where one may be tempted into overspending. In addition, one should avoid associating with people who like to spend their money without considering the consequences.

One should also make a list of their necessities. One can do this by deciding what things would be needed and what is not needed. One can do this by deciding what things are necessary. In addition, one would want to decide what things could wait. Sometimes things can be put off until another time. Another major factor is not buying on impulse but one should think before acting. This way one can be sure that they are spending their money wisely.

Suspect

Hotline Bling - Kehlani, Charlie Puth Cover / Jay Kim

You used to call me on my cell phone

Late night when you need my love

Call me on my cell phone

Late night when you need my love

And I know when that hotline bling

That can only mean one thing

I know when that hotline bling

That can only mean one thing

And now u did that with others too,frequently yah?

Ever since I left the city,

You got a reputation for yourself now

Everybody knows and I feel left out

Girl you got me down, you got me stressed out

'Cause ever since I left the city,

you started wearing less and goin' out more

Glasses of champagne out on the dance floor
Hangin' with some girls I've never seen before

These days, all I do is

Wonder if you bendin' over backwards for someone else

Wonder if you're rollin' up a backwoods for someone else

Doing things I taught you, gettin' nasty for someone else

You don't need no one else

You don't need nobody else, no

Why you never alone

Why you always touching road

Used to always stay at home, be a good girl

You was in a zone, yeah

You should just be yourself

Right now, you're someone else

 I try to keep myself with others, either male or female, I put the trust on you. so hopefully  you do not spoil the trust , I have a warn you early on, do not give a hope, for you alone, you know the consequence. while I try to avoid my bad attitude, dont you ever  busy with an attitude like that. I got the instinct, for why I do not show proof, afraid unanswered. I do not expect a high expectation of you, I'm asking for you to take care of that, If you let this small thing stifles , so good enough that I am not the kind like the woman outside there , or am  I just to kind tht u can easily stomp on me??Then it will be the stupid of me I think? I started to have doubt on you,guilt was there,hope that everythings gonna be okay.damn, its hurt....and it even become worst when they did not treat the same way like wht I saw ..Lets be patient and watch your drama since u re the one who started to do first..lets see..Thanks for doing this der...

Justin Bieber - Love Yourself (PURPOSE : The Movement)

NEW SEMESTER BEGINS!



enough of 1 month holiday, enjoy2 n wtevr. New sem begin, and enough of the old habit..so lets  chnge d attitude!!!! So, lets start with new resolution.

 First of all,no more attend late to the class, watching variety show too much, and the most hard part, lighten you leg to the lectrer's room every time u didnt understand. This sem seem harder than before since taking the 3 killer paper at one time. Hopefully, I can catch up all the subject and do well for the final. Enough from repeat paper..harapnya, this semester being blessed with good health , understanding and being smart and fast learner catch what the lecturer taught in the class. So, whats the Diff. in this semester?? good news, reunite again with my old roommate(lega!!!) near with others, and no more staying in a cave! and to someone who's right now started his internship, selamat berpraktikal bruh!! I hope everything goes well there.

"Even u get hurt all the time, lets just pretend tht u re okay"~ smile

THE 7 YEARS

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
aku mula bicara sebaik mesej dari kau aku terima
sepanjang perkenalan antara aku dan kau...stiap slah dari ku..maafkan aku
stiap layann buruk baik ku trhadap kau andai terlalu kasarnya aku..maafkan aku
Maafkan aku,akibat perbuatan aku terhadap kau terlampau kasar sehinggakan aku x sgka pbuatan ku sgt mementingkan diri serta tamak..dan tlampau menekan...perbuatan ku ini tidak aku sedar sehingga aku telah membuat orang lain terluka..yang aku tahu ..diri aku yang aku pertahankan dulu...maffkan aku...dari awal lagi kau pernah cakap kau x nk ada yg tahu...n apa yg kau dah buat ni salah..tp masa awal dlu..dsbbkn ko tlmpau mmilih aku jalan yg slah dah kita berdua pilih...terlampau banyak perkara yg kite dh lakukan bersama baik yg benar atau pun salah...kadang aku sendiri pikir...apa benar sejauh ini jalan yg kita pilih??
For the past 3 years ..I would like to thanks to yo..I do appreciate you, I am so grateful to have you...for being take care of me, at some point, u make me laugh,,happy,,feels love and everything that we have gone through together..There are some moment that i will always remember...Fore sure the things i most appreciate is when u take care,wait for me while i was sick before this..That was the most time I appreciate u the most.Since those time as well u back me up so much and being annoyed for what most my friend did to me...For the moment at all places that we ve been went together, I wonder, what will happend to me and what it feels like when u re not here anymore? With the most hurting part tht happend last night, it hurts me more since im the one who fault in this situation. I am so sorry for what i did. Because of jealousy, im being too emotional as well last night since im too scared, if i lost u..n eventually it did happen. I am so sorry.. I do not know what should I do...counting days on only how many days left for me to be with u here since after this you are away too far at the south completing your practical and then starts working. I wish you all the best..Sayang..I put my believe on you..and im so sorry for did not trust you and think otherwise everytime. I am jut too scared to lost you...But then i notice it really  happens  now due to my fault. I am tired actually for the promises if its not work out someday...
THEN,,as my last word..yes i will keep it secret from now on.. i WILL NOT FORCE U ANYMORE, wont think negatively...so please keep ur promises as well as u will come back to me Apabila kau sudah mampu memiliki aku semula...I will wait for u...Those 7 years..lets starts counting...disebabkan semua yang telah pun berlaku..satu je aku minx...jgn benci aku...simpan janji kau untuk aku,ye?